Well, it’s 3:52am and I’m wide awake. Despite the long day ahead. Tomorrow we will be celebrating my younger son’s 14th birthday. Such a joyous occasion which I am very excited for, yet I lay in bed counting expenses in my head. How am I going to pay for it all? Don’t get me wrong, my salary is decent and I don’t spend extravegantly, but circumstances cause me to pinch a little bit, I mean a LOT more nowadays.
So, I lay in bed and calculate… literally… cake, food, drinks, games.. it adds up very quickly… now what can I eliminate? Not much.
So, naturally one’s mind would wander in the dark of night, with spouse peacefully sleeping away. Did my parents deliberate as us 3 sisters grew up? When children are young you want to give them the world at their fingertips. But as they get older, you want to give them the future you never had.
So for now I’ll try to close my eyes and try to stop counting dollars and start counting sheep. Wishing my baby boy a very happy birthday and a much brighter future!
You must be related to my wife because, like you, her brain sorts through stuff in the middle of the night. I sleep quite well. My feelings are if we’re going to mess up, let’s do it blessing our kids. So, let the party begin.
So funny, yes, I tend to do my thinking at night! My cousin once told me to put a notebook next to my bed so if I need to jot something down (a “To Do”, thoughts, or ideas) it would be easily accessible! Perhaps she might find it to be helpful too!
I was up at the same time. Worrying about similar things. Believe that it will be okay. Cut other future expenses where you can (more coupons?) but I agree with Larry, bless your sons for having you as their mother. Yes, our parents worried. It’s our jobs. Sending you light and love.
As always, thank you!! Ah I hope you got your thoughts sorted out also 🙂 I miss WordPress, will be visiting your page shortly!
And isn’t it funny that those fears looming large at 3 Am are often just silly in the light of day? Happy Birthday to your boy!
Thank you! and yes, it’s funny how time flies at that night too, I keep thinking I’ll go to sleep at any moment, then all of a sudden it’s 4:30am and almost time for the alarm to go off! Happy Monday!