Recipe for Crazy
1 pill Birth Control
1 shot Lupron
Take Lupron in the morning and Birth Control in the evening. Everyday, indefinitely.
Had another check up. It has now been a full 5 weeks since egg retrieval. Our 6 little blastocysts have been patiently waiting for my body to prepare for them. I’m now on my 4th straight week of birth control and 2nd week of Lupron.
For those of you who have already paid your due diligence on this lupron/birth control cocktail, God bless you. I’m sure that symptoms are different with each patient, but for me……
I am at my wits end. I have hot flashes like it’s coming from my core. Then I get cold…. chills cold. I want to cry at EVERYTHING. I attended a pre-screening of Draft Day yesterday, which was a great movie. And I CRIED when the Kevin Costner character made his draft pick. I can usually contain a good cry but for some reason I couldn’t. I feel like my insides (my nerves) are on edge. I want to cry, scream, sleep… all at the same time. I’m tired, achy, throwing up… and my hair is falling out… is that normal?
It doesn’t help that my boys have picked this very month to have their own teenager problems. It also doesn’t help that my husband considers every outburst as a “mood swing”. It’s at these very times when I need the support of my family, but on the outside I look “normal” so to them, I’m just crazy. On top of that, my car broke down twice and overheated 3 times.
I had my doctor’s appointment this morning. My ovaries look better, well rested. Thank goodness. But my lining is still a bit thick. Which means I could be looking at another week (or 2) on this dreaded Lupron cocktail. I NEED SUPPORT. Seriously. I don’t want to give up, but this medicine is draining all good things out of me.
Note to My Normal Self: Come back please! I miss you!
P.S. In writing this post, I looked up the word “Patient” (for spell-check purposes) and it came up with various synonyms: enduring, easygoing, tolerant, serene….. None of which describes me, the patient (noun), right now. Ahh, the double entendre.
You are so funny! I tell you, birth control is simply the WORST and adding lupron to it is no joke. I seriously don’t know how normal women who take birth control for a purpose ever are in the mood to have sex. That’s probably how it works.
Hang in there Mama… you will be reunited with your babies soon. And count your blessings that you are with a man who at least seeks to be understood. My husband is not complex enough to be concerned about such things. But now that I think about it, if he was it might drive me crazy.
Alisa, I totally agree, Birth Control is bad enough alone! I’m so put off by everything… and with Lupron, I’m overly hormonal about every little thing! I’ll keep telling myself to keep my eye on the prize. Hope you are doing well, thinking of you!
I am much better… starting to get back in my groove. Despite these damn birth control pills making me cramp and grumpy! 🙂
So it’s the BCPs that are making me crazy?? I started mine about a week ago and I’m nuts lately, but everyone keeps telling me it’s just me, that BCPs don’t have side effects. Well, I have news for them, I’m moody and bloated like you wouldn’t believe! My last cycle on Lupron I just noticed a horrible, horrible headache. I was on 10 units daily, but on April 9th I’ll add Lupron at 20 units daily this time. God help me. God help you as well! No giving up, you’re babies need you! Good luck!
I totally agree, it’s no longer a mood swing, it’s a mood roller coaster and not the fun kind either! Wow, 20 units, best of luck to you! I’m on 10ius but waiting to hear back from my dr appointment this morning..