Well, today is Day 21 on Lupron and tomorrow will be my 4th dose of Delestrogen. My next appointment will be Thursday, a possible pre-op appointment.
I feel like I need to write today. Most of the time, I plan my posts hours before I actually write them…. but today, I just feel like I need to write my little heart out. You don’t necessarily need to read this…. this is just me blogging today.
As I was saying I’m on Day 21 of Lupron…. 21 days of shots every morning – not to mention the 1 1/2″ needle that goes into the top of my rear end every 3 days…. can I say I’m hormonal????? I believe it’s the Lupron that makes me have hot flashes. I could barely sleep last night because at one minute I was burning up from inside… then extremely cold the next.
And I Just Want To Cry
Really, I’m eager and excited for what is to come. I am hopeful. I don’t want to complain.
But these meds are no joke. Now I understand why they have IVF support group, mentors, forums, blogs…. we need all the support we can get. And if it was easy to tell outsiders what we’re going through, then it wouldn’t be so difficult. Dare I say that the closest of friends, family, even spouses have no clue what us IVF-ers feel like having extreme levels of hormones injected into you every day (sometimes twice a day). What makes it worse, is when you have an emotional day – they take it personally and the stress level rises when you feel like you have to carefully construct conversations when you really want to just SCREAM, and CRY.
3 more days…. THREE more days till my next doctor’s appointment. I can wait. Please God, let Thursday come quick!