I have a confession.. and I debated on if I should ‘Post” this or not, but for the sake of my ability to be transparent via ONE avenue (my blog) I must share this: Not even 2 weeks after my announcement of us taking a break, I just caught myself reading the 999 Reasons to Laugh at Fertility blog… then veering off to other Infertility websites, and of course visiting other Infertile Buddy blogs.
Most likely because my Mittelschmerz is always so prominent. For those who are not familiar, Mittelshmerz (I don’t know how to pronounce it) is the pain some women get when ovulating. For me, it is sometimes more painful than my actual menstrual cramps. It doesn’t last long, but it is surely painful. Sometimes I feel like I need to lay down. Today was one of those days. And though we are on a break, how could I ignore this all-tell sign?
Well, without grossing you out, I nonchalantly found a way to convey my love for my husband without sounding like “Let’s Do This NOW!!!” although he knows me pretty well and could probably tell I wanted more than hugs and kisses at Half Time during the Florida State game. Yes, I tried my best to wait till Half Time at least.
Anyway, glad I’m a bit anonymous on this site cause I’m sure I’d get a few slaps on my wrist for even mentioning that I haven’t been true to my break from baby-making. But I know I’m not alone in this, I’ve caught hubby in a few conversations as well. Guess it has become a way of life for us. We’ll try the best we can to RELAX as many would say “it might happen when you stop trying”…. (and all the Infertiles say……. “Riiiigggghhhtt”)